Actually almost forgot the dream i had on Friday night. Thanks to dear missywhothinksshesabetterpigthanme, as she asked me to tell her something interesting. And so i manage to recall that stupid dream...So, for those who are interested to read...unleash your imagination!! As most of my dreams, they're really weird and well, just wild!!

System activated.......(i mean your brain)

I was..no i mean, we were, or at least, my whole gang include my dear mum were in a super huge mansion...and the weird thing is that, that mansion was full of Aquarium all over the place, super big aquarium...then i was changing the water, picking out dead fish (wonder if it's a bad omen). Then here comes my gifts...i really dont know what we're doing in that stupid mansion with all the fishes there...

They're in medium sized boxes, the first one, something sweet was inside, cant remember, i guess it's chocolate or something, maybe it really was chocolate. Since i dont like chocolates, so that explain why i think it's sweet but i cant really pay much attention to it.

The second, was a nice pouch. On top of the pouch, there were ribbons tied to 2 very cheap rings, one gold and one silver, well they're really cheap like those you can get from pasar malam...then there came my mum, she glance and say, 'hmm, so what does that means?' then she walked away...I'd really love to ask my mum,'what do you mean by that expression and that sentence? It's so not like you...'

So i was there alone standing besides a small table with all the stupid AQUARIUMS AND FISHES around me. Then what was in the pouch? A bigger white gold ring...with some special design, and some blue crystal on it, dont know why blue crystal. And dont know why that guy has to ask someone to send the ring to me, and dont know why he send the ring because we're not even in a relationship...sweat!! Too many question marks there. It's really weird...

Ok back to the ring, since it's not normal for a guy to give a gal a ring, so i was curious what is written on the ring... so i turn to see what's on the inner side of the ring and then.....

then....

then....

then....

then....

I saw....

IMU

Ok...by that time i really really SWEAT a lot dy because... does that means the guy actually buy the ring from IMU or that he stold the ring from IMU??? You guys can laugh because it's really ridiculous, i'm laughing myself now as well... of all words why must it be IMU???

I think i 'LOVE' IMU too much even cant get rid of it in my dream...

But i did find what i want to see on the ring as i turned it the other way round haha

Really, IMU, it's scary...i hope that will never come true, if not i'll swear i never receive any gifts anymore....

Now the thought of that dream is just ahaha how to say, so funny haha... i never knew dreams can have sense of humour...really... haha.

Saturday...the most tiring saturday i ever had...

Out with KC since 10 am and reach home by 8pm...

At least 8 hours of nonstop walking, now my legs really aching...my fault...for not wearing sports shoes and dragging the time when picking stuffs...

I have KTM, and this is the worst...cant believe how i have to stuck in a slow train with so many ppl, and i nearly got my phone stolen. The whole 20 minutes journey was a torture. A am pushed against an indian guy by the malays gals at my back. I felt his left hand was moving occasionally and i thought he wanted to molest or pick pocket the chinese gal in front of her. I looked down but i cant see anything as it was really crowded and too black...then when i feel that his movements was really annoying, i reached my hand down to check my phone...and his hand was there holding my phone from ouside of my pocket, then he felt my hand and turned to look at me!! I was shocked and furious. Would have kick and yell provided that my destination hadnt reached that time. I guess he tried to push my phone out of my pocket but i'd like to see him try, because my belt has 2 dangling chain that exactly hang over my pocket, even me find it hard to reach for my phone sometimes. If he tried, sure he cant reach and i would have felt his hand pulling my belt!! Damn it was really close.

After that it was all walking and walking and walking...went to Rhapsody Music first, then try the Guirtar Collection...Kena tipu by KC to go Toys R' Us to watch Elmo' video haha, then went into Jusco ending up having lunch there. The best part in Mid Valley was in the Yamaha Shop...I love the Maroon Electronic Violin they showed me,

 it has a nice touch but too bad they cant give me more information about, first i think they're not knowledgeable enough about that violin and second, it's not popular to have one here in malaysia i guess. And they only have one Electronic Violin. What i want is a YAMAHA SILENT VIOLIN!! Nope they dont have it. And the Electronic VIolin alone cost about RM 4800. From what they told, it's as if i cant have much choice for the colour as well.. really really sweat. And the price is just too much. If i buy directly from internet and let it ship here, i guess the most is RM 4000...But i really want a real silent violin!! And KC just fanned my desire to get one. He said i can use silent violin to perform when i'm in a band or jazz and my acoustic Baby, just leave for speical occasion!! As if i'm a real pro now haha!! But i seriously dont think my parents will let me purchase one..unless i sell my Baby, then the most i might get is 3 Electronic Violin!! But my Baby's an investment!! As for Electronic or Silent violin...they are just like CARS...Ahhhh but the thought of playing a real silent violin is just too cool!!

KC, i really think if i wanna buy, i'll get a Yahama, it's the best brand with best quality so far, there still a whole bunch of brands out there which offer cheaper price and special awkward designs and colours but still Yahama's series are more practical, finer touch, and more close to an acoustic. I know you can see my face glimmer when i hold and try the electric violin yesterday..Easier to press but i doubt it would help in improving my skills seriously. The idea of getting a second hand silent violin is tempting but do you really think i can rely on internet source for that? And it might be 'scars' all over, although for you and my teacher, it means 'glory' with those 'scars', as they represent how many 'battles' it has been through but i really hate 'scars', even my own baby, i've cut the risk to the very minimal everytime i perform..Ling Wei and you left a few obvious scars and i had heartache for long...since then i wont simply let anyone touch her anymore...no no i dont want scars...And you do know my violin is the most fragile of all violins in the Classical Ensemble Group...

My long term goal, if i can manage before i die, is to play with the Glass Violin or own one (which is impossible)!!

But it's really rare, glass violin, only 2 are known to exist so far, in the whole world haha..no kidding

Cant believe that i cant get a Wire Sehan Mute for my Baby, of all those music shops we visit...sweat

What's so unique about this mute? well it's nicer to look haha. Bentley music is better than Chamber music, at least there're ppl to entertain us and the place is no so crowded. Wann try their bows next time!! I seriously wanna get a new bow, if i can afford it before i go Glasgow, because mine is half dead now...Oh no, got to save money, have to service my violin first!

Love the show in Pavillion, it's nice, and true, only race like the Chinese with such long history can have such tradition and culture. I'm proud to be one haha.

Thanks KC for the whole day, for walking here and there with me, helping me, giving suggestion and carry out my stupid and ridiculous ideas without complains. Thanks a lot and yes this is the second time and most probably the last time we're going to hang out like that!!. Thanks and i really appreciate. Learn a lot of things from you as well, of music and of computers.

Off to bed soon, it's been a very tiring day. Adieu...~~

Emo…that’s what I feel now and for the past 2 weeks. Maybe it’s just the atmosphere, new year just passed, lots of feeling pouring from all directions. Before holiday, I was desperate, desperate in almost everything, the party, the house, the toilet, the performance, the administration, the mood, the hidden meanings, the friends, the pictures etc. [ops, now I know I missed out studies and reports, no wonder now I’m so frust with them] But after Christmas…everything just sort of moving in a super slow pace…suddenly I lost all my moods and feelings, no more desperation, I just want peace. And suddenly I feel tired of almost all things…Feel guilty of leaving my baby untouched, guilty of not going for master classes, finding peace just sitting in front of the lap top or just talking to Merv’s mum, enjoying the moment of lil chit chat with Tracy and half naked Merv, eating dragon fruits together haha. It’s as though I’ve grown up 10 years in just one week…sigh getting old. Now I left 9 year ++ of youth to enjoy…

           The happiest moment, I guess, is the time I spend with my gang!! Despite the lil tantrum with my family few days ago, I still feel extra happy when I can see any of the faces of my gang. Some might think I have split personality, emo in msn but forever smiling in my gang. Haha maybe I do have, but I just feel happy to be with them, the cloudy mood just shoo itself away!! And I really think it’s unnecessary to make them worry for me and of course bringing the whole gang’s mood down is really bad. I promise myself I’ll control my bad temper, when in my gang. And they’re nice enough to leave me alone when I’m in a bad mood, which is good to avoid harm to them and to me as well haha. I really appreciate all those cares through msgs. [this is because when I’m in a bad mood, whoever comes will ‘kena’ by me]

            One old friend said, I’m easily contented, I never thought I am but now I really think she’s right. Simple lil things can make me happy for the whole day now. A small gift from HP, from Mam of South Wales can make me happy just the thought of them. Even a simple smile from KP also makes me happier!

            TRI, you are the best I’ve ever had. Sharing, trust, care, and great sense of humour are always the keys to all of us right?! Ppl say it’s weird why we are in one gang, because everyone of us is so much different from the others. I know the answer, we are not ‘kiasu’ among each other [in fact, we procrastinate together-gether haha]. There’re of course certain amount of competitive among us [I’ll be kidding the whole world if I say none] but we never took that seriously don’t we? We commented and criticized each other sometimes quite harshly but we keep that among us only and that is really good, as we learn more about each other and we learn to improve ourselves. ‘back stabbing’ intra-gang is better than those ppl really back stabbing each other. Those are ppl with real split personality! Don’t you think? I find peace when I’m around you guys!! Love you guys so much!!

            The steamboat yesterday was nice!! I enjoy every moment, saviour to my soul once I stepped out of Dr Ignacio’s workshop. Enjoy the moment where you guys try to get the BBQ chicken wings haha, the lil gossip I learned, the lil lessons I learn, the lil chit chat we had, the lil super lesbian moment with Jeannie and Pui Leng [hope Chris didn’t get jealous at the sight yesterday] the lil joke bout Prawns with Chris, lil ‘rebut Edmund’ moments with Jeannie and LY, ah those were just nice haha!! The cake eating moment was just so haha how to say, a bit childish but overall the best moment!! What we did? We shared the apple crumble ‘together-gether’…as in everyone took a piece then eat from each other’s plate, Jeannie even cut portions from her plate and gave it to Chloe and Pui Leng, all those talks about fattening, calories are nonsense haha, pretended to be weight conscious but all finished the cake! At the end!! Luckily I hid in the toilet and when I’m done, my cake was gone as well!! Aiyar haha, all so shock sendiri last night, I think those scenes are really unsightly to other customers haha. Hmm, it’s a waste Edmund didn’t show me how to shave his head with the Shaver we got him lol.

            I think why we enjoy ourselves so much together is because we don’t need much money to enjoy and no high maintenance in our gang, and Bdays are really good excuses for us to hang out together and that’s all, we cherish every moment we’re together haha. We love each other because of who we are, not because of what we are. No show offs, no pressures. We accept every single soul in the gang. I hope that we hold this magic spells together and forever if possible. Love you guys, xxooxxooXOXO haha.

Sweat, I always ended up writing what that’s not in my mind. Got carried away easily…never mind la some words are better left untouched, or when I have the mood to touch lar…

***What Carolyn Koh Khai Han Means***

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. (i can only say all these depend on my mood)

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality. (no wonder i get indigestion quite often >.<!)

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. (now everyone knows i'm up to something)
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. (i know i can count on myself but i dont know if ppl can count on me)
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. (this is true, even my grandma says GuanYin goddess ask me to relax more )

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.(ya but too relaxed dy sometimes)
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.(lots of secrets haha)

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.(yup...)
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.(someone said i'm too hard to be predicted)
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.(my thoughts are wild in nature!!This helps alot in music-playing, you need imagination)
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.(i love to learn new things, but not academic related)
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.(even my close friends complaint i get distracted easily and always look as if i'm in deep thoughts, but actually most of the time my mind is blank haha)

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. (depends on my mood la, IMU is such a boring place to carry them out seriously)
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.(not true, i'm stupid in studies)
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.(This is true and i annoy some ppl with these..-_-! So dont treat me with selfishness and overbearingness if not i can be real mean! 

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. (unless it's interesting enough to get my attention)
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.(yeah, got distracted easily)

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning? Check this out if you're interested:
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/

A short entry to welcome my new friend, Johnny Wong, whom i knew him through Youtube!!

A nice and friendly singaporean who come across my youtube account and tahdah...we are friends haha

Welcome again to you JOhnny WOng haha, all the best in new year, all the best in learning the piano, all the best in trying Fur Elise, and all the best in your studies!!

Thanks for being the first friend on my list here as well!!

Have fun exploring all the features in Bravenet and hope you'll enjoy it!! Then tell me what's cool about it, because i'm too lazy to go bother about other features haha. Hope to hear from you soon!!

Cya soon and take care!!

Another year gone...reflecting upon what i did on 2007, what i can say is...i dont really remember much of what i did haha!!

Well, you may call me an optimist, or a happy-go-lucky gal (although sometimes i'm far from that), because for me, life is short!! So, living in the past will only make us more miserable, we need to move on.I live only in the present!! And for the future, come what may!!

2007...can say it's just a normal year, cant recall any big events, normal year haha. At least now i dont feel like recalling if there's any big thing happened...

Before going into 2008, i wanna thanks a few ppl...

• My family, for always there for me.
• Hooi ping and hui ling, thanks for the help for Class Party and the gifts you guys sent me!! Really nice to work with guys.
• Anabelle, eewan, vco, thanks for the help as well, you guys guided me a lot, and nice to interact more with you guys, it's been lots of fun working with you guys!! Hope we have that chance in the future!!
• My gang, especially Jeannie, Lai yee, KC, heu yee, and jia hui's gang, for you guys are so supportive, i know you are always there for me and i can count on you anytime!!Thanks for the bday too!! Special thanks to Huey Yee also, now you're no longer staying in vista, who's going to 'siao' with me dy?? I'll be so bored and lonely for sure!
• The classical ensemble group, it's been really fun jamming with you ppl, you guys are the coolest ppl in IMU i ever met!! Talk with coolness, play with coolness and help with such enthusiasm!! So talented, every single one of you. I'm blessed to have known you guys.
• My secret santa, thanks for your cute gift!!
• Debbie mam from South Wales,thanks for the spiderweb gloves, the eye shadow, the shoelaces and the stocking you sent me, they're cool, add to my collections!!Hope 2008 i'll have a chance to visit you in South Wales and meet Kayleigh, Kristy and Mike as well!!
• Thanks mervin's parents, thanks for the food and chat, you guys are really nice!! will follow mervin back to visit you guys if the time in March fits!!

Hmm...hope i didnt miss out anyone...sorry if i did...

Now, it's new year, gotta list out my resolutions...although i'll eventually break all of them

1. Lose some weight
2. Sleep less
3. Crap less
4. Study very the harder so i can go Glasgow
5. Never leave things to the last minute
6. Dont read lectures slides and module guides only during the study weeks, read them NOW!!
7. Eat more fruits and forget about potato chips and frenchfries
8. Get my passion for violin back
9. Be a better sister and daughter
10. Swim more (but now Huey Yee's not here anymore...where got mood go swim?)
11. Try not to ignore my Diploma
12. Get a camera, an external hard disk and what else?
13. Download lots of manga and anime before i go Glasgow
14. Finish my sweater before i go Glasgow
15. Msn and Youtube less
16. Read more books
17. Improve my japanese
18. Daydream less
19. Get myself a boyfriend? haha
20. Save money for travel!!

Ahh that's all, if keep on listing it'll be never ending...

Now, i wanna make wishes!! I wish... i wish...

1. Mum, uncle and grandmas will have better health, so do all of my family members
2. Wish my brother will get a scholarship, because seriously i cant afford you to study that course lar, even if i'm teaching and working, you know...but i'll do my best, a promise is always a promise.
3. All my friends will have good lucks in the new year
4. I can have good marks
5. Daddy will have a good and smooth year in his new working place. Dad, you promise to buy me a Volkswagen Beetles when you win lottery, so please win fast, i dont want Volkswagen, a smart car is enough or kelisa also enough dy, and please include driving course as well, dont think i can drive anymore LOL But...if you win a trillion dollar, i want.... i want.... i want a Porsche (i can only dream for the rest of my life about having one haha)
6. Wish i can have a sunglass
7. I want a silent violin
8. Wish i get better skills for goth!!
9. I seriously want a cosplay birthday party in Glasgow!! I know it's impossible lar, but this is a wishlist!! Anyone can wish for anything haha!!
10. I want an smooth, exciting and interesting year ahead!!

Guess that's enough, in fact, too much dy, i'm too greedy, well, it's a blog, and anyone can put anything they want right? Some are real, some are my fantasy, both resolutions and wishes....if all can happen next year...i'm the luckiest gal on earth!!

Lastly, hope everyone have a prosperous year ahead. Happy 2008. Hope the world will be a better place for all humankind.